1998 - End of the Beginning

By the end of February 1998, my life radically changed.

I had to move out of my bedroom on account of it flooding. Adding to that, I struggled to recall dreams for weeks in both February and January. Looking back, I grew steadily more resistant to cues from the Nova Dreamer. I had to raise the alarm settings, and eventually, I slept through maximum.

I never deliberately performed a W.I.L.D. I made the mistake of wearing the mask to bed, instead of using the mask after 6-hours sleep. After building up a tolerance, this was especially counterproductive.

The remaining dream reports to be published to this blog were conducted a full 12-months later. Sadly, progress and special dreams I had between February 1998, and January 1999, are now only memories.

Dream 057: A Dreamless Week

Now I'm pissed! I haven't recalled a dream in a week! What happened!? I must have vivid dreams right now!

057: I vaguely recall telling my Mom in a dream Stacy had already gone back to Tim, or words to that effect. I also had flash backs of dream visions, but none I clearly recall anymore.

Note: I continued all my induction techniques for this entire week. And, I used the Nova Dreamer, and honestly didn't recall even one dream. I have notes for almost each day, but no dreams. Not sure what brought this on, but things had been running smoothly until this point. I will look into if anything special happened that week.

-January 24, 1997

Dream 052-055: One Timeless Dance & Multiple Reality Buttons

052: I was at my High School dance. It was not in a building I recognized. I don't even recall seeing anyone's face. I was sitting on some silver bars (jungle gym/monkey bars) talking to a girl. She asked me something about dancing. I was wearing a white collared shirt, similar to one I wore at my Junior High graduation! A song came on that everyone wanted to dance to it. It was Grease Lightning!

053: I was trying to press the reality tester button on the Nova Dreamer. But, there was several of them and none of them worked at all. I dismissed it as just me trying to press the circuits and "missing the button."

054: This dream had a beginning, middle, and end. All I recall of it now is the very beginning and the very end. Stacy and I were in S.F. in her car. She drove there and we parked... Near the end of the dream we found the car, nearby Tom (one of my best friends first cousins!) was there. I thanked him (?) and gave him a firm handshake.

Note: Yet again, a person I have had little contact with in life appears in my dreams. And yet again, a cousin is featured in my dreams.

055: I had graphic sexual dream about my Ex Stacy where we did "almost everything" but she was on her period. I never looked her in the eyes, and it was day time. This maybe connected with the last dream, part of it, or a separate dream.

-January 16, 1998

Dream 038-039: Gun Play & Failed Reality Test

038: I had a handgun, black. I was walking around (a house) and pointing it a lot (like a cop movie). I searched through some closet/cubby hole, but found nothing. Then felt cautious enough to point the gun into the closet. I recall thinking "That was a lame thing for me to do."

Why that one moment is the only part I recall is bizarre to me. It wasn't the most eventful, interesting, challenging, or scenic. If anything it was one of the least interesting moments, and not the last moment at that. I'm sure the dream went on for at least a minute longer.

Note: On the surface a throw away dream, but I still remember it to this day. I vaguely recollect finding a woman in a rocking chair in a living room area next. This brief fragment has the air of one of my nightmares in the resolution phase.

039: At one time last night, or two, I dreamed that the reality tester button on the Nova Dreamer had fallen out of the mask!

Note: Dream 039 is the first to include a possible false awakening. Only, I never remembered waking up, only dreaming that the button had fallen out. It reminds me of dreams in which I found cash. When I woke up, I briefly looked around realizing of course, it was all a dream.

-January 8, 1998